This is all about the doings of a so called man on an innocent young lady,
And oh how the much older man made the young lady cry.
Just like a big old spider this man knew how to get his prey,
My predator knew my weaknesses and when I got tangle up in his web he
Immobilized me and I became his prey.

A predator shows no empathy and has no moral compass,
He takes his prey by surprise way before his victim knows what is about to happen.
But the blank look on my face really Said It All!!!
The cards were so called “stacked up against me” as I took my final fall.
TRUST is the ransom I have had to pay not to be free!

Trust-WOW, my trust is long gone, vanished forever into the abyss.
My kindness and values only leads people to take advantage of me
And may lead me to have to sacrifice myself and or my beliefs.
Today’s world is very complicated and even corrupt.
My idea of who I thought I was has just went up in smoke.

The darkness in my life stares me down with such empty haunted eyes.
I find myself smack-dab in the middle of Hell!
If you believe in Heaven then you have to believe in Hell.
I saw the devil make ice burn as he unleashes his Hell Hounds to forever walk the earth looking for lost souls.
Did I really see this or am I on the verge of crazy?

My wounds are all so very deep and so hard to heal.
Yes…this is my hell!  The devil even calls me by my name.
The physical, emotional, verbal and sexual abuse I went through has devastated, terrified and destroyed me!  Has this predator truly conquered me?

My road in life now seems to wobble and weave everything is black and white.
Everything is not as it seems I keep everyone at arm’s length from me.
I could feel a huge knot of apprehension deep down inside of me
As he walks to the locked door and sets me free but not before threatening me by saying,
“Don’t tell anyone anything or I’ll make your life a living hell.”
Now that’s truly insane, I’m already living in hell…the moment he raped me.




We all have to stop putting limitations on ourselves, only our minds can produce fear.
We have to be ready to take control of how we will respond to the evil ones that walk
This earth…for we are all predators or prey.
Get rid of that ball and chain of emotions you keep carrying around.
I know it’s not easy, I still to this day have anxiety just walking down a street not knowing
Just whom I may meet.

This world is full of trouble I ain’t said it ain’t,
But you don’t have to remain a prisoner of your memories.
Truth be said, “a memory is about something that happened.
And has no means to make it unhappen.”

We have to plunge ourselves back into the real world,
Welcome back you long forgotten self.
You are NOT lost, tucked away or forgotten.
Reinvent yourself, refocus, reshape, re-examine…crack that code that is
Holding you hostage.

Don’t be like me, don’t let anyone control you, pull rank on you, order you nor make
You do things you know are totally wrong for them to ask of you to do.
End it right now before you get in too deep pput an end to this sort of drama
Before it ends you.
VIOLENCE of any kind is no way to live or to die!!!

The roads I have traveled were hard and long,
With each and every step forcing me to be stronger,
But great lessons were indeed learned.

Be wary of all encounters…TRUST NO – ONE!!

It still is today, very very important to me to be Diane,
But it was and is very difficult to find her.
I still hold a wild card up my sleeve.
Predator (demon) this game is far from being over!!