NOT TODAY

I am not going to do it today

I cannot promise you tomorrow, but not today

I will not let my inner demons win

I will not kill myself today

NOT TODAY

I might cry and sit on my hands

I may scream in a pillow

But no matter what

I am not going to kill myself today

NOT TODAY

I am not going to hurt anyone today

I am not going to scream or hit anyone today

If I get angry and start to shake, I will go for a walk

Or take a deep breath and realize where I am wrong

I cannot promise you tomorrow, but not today

For I want to be happy

I want to be happy with where I am and what I do

I want to be happy with myself today

I cannot promise you tomorrow

But for the love of humanity

I am not going to do it Today

NOT TODAY



Michelle Nicole Martin