I am drowning in these emotions that are attacking 
from all sides.
Do I stop? Do I quit? Do I run? Do I hide?
Which direction do I take? Which path do I follow?
I’m exhausted: I want to stop, sit in my misery and wallow.
Just a short time ago I was happy with every aspect 
of my being.
How quickly it has turned into torment: I am paralyzed 
and grieving.
Each struggle took a piece of me every single day.
All the work I had done went to hell where it stayed.
I lost every tool I had worked so hard to learn.
I turned left, I turned right; in the fire my tools were burned.
I don’t want to hurt myself or to hurt anyone.
I just don’t want to feel these emotions or think 
of the damage they have done.
Mindfulness: one of the best tools I had once mastered.
My mind tells me, however, I am a complete and utter disaster.
Stay in the present moment and be nonjudgmental.
The words that won’t be silent are not quiet and gentle.
                                            STOP!
Focus on my truth at this very instance.
Silence these fears; keep them in the distance.
My truth is that I’m wise, loving, and giving.
This truth I need to focus on to get back to living. 
Recognize situations for what they really are.
Don’t take on the blame; you have come too far.
Focus on myself and what I need.
Validation, proceed with heed.
This is one speck of sand through the hourglass.
Let the sorrow and self-doubt pass.
Take this opportunity to learn and grow.
Don’t let this moment cloud what you already know.
Healing is a journey that is not easy to travel.
Stand strong; don’t let yourself unravel.
This was not a relapse or failure on my part.
Reset! This is a new day, a fresh start.