I'm Beginning To Feel This Battle I Have Already Won



I'm accepting this new horizon of courage I have found.

I am breaking the chains of my past that had me bound.

That I allowed to keep me in my prison that's kept me down.

But now I'm growing in all areas from help all around.



There's a male intern sitting in my sessions with Nicole.

I would have never believed you if I was told.

That with Derrell sitting in I could take back control.

From MST traumas caused by a man and to feel consoled.



Just from him being in our sessions by my request.

Details I am now willing to have addressed.

The pain and emotions that I have kept compressed.

And I'm thankful for the time that's he's willing to invest.



I'm not sure how it will affect him, as he's in training.

But I hope he knows that power and courage I am gaining.

Along with him, knowledge is what I hope he is attaining.

Because now with this open door I'll no longer be retaining.





My fears, my tears, and my other emotions too.

I'll no longer hold back because this is something I want to do.

To tackle this area where I feel like I haven't yet grew.

With him and Nicole, my soul I will be able to soothe.



I always thought I needed to understand why.

Why that man, my drill sgt. that was more than an ally.

Could do what he did that in silence made me cry.

And caused me to change my life and become crucified.



But I no longer feel as though I need an answer.

Of why he did what he did that sick bastard.

It's my turn now to become the advancer. 

To take charge of my life and not by being a chancer.



This is really something, a walk off homerun.

That now I feel can and will be done.

No longer from this trauma will I run.

I'm beginning to feel that this battle I have already won.