LIFE FOR ME IN THE MILITARY
By Nicholas Spano, Army
Writing Type: Poem
Of course the records show.
I was no ordinary G.I. Joe
I joined the military in 1976, not a clue why I did.
Maybe just for kicks.
Or maybe because my Dad was a Vet.
But the time I spent in, I'd soon rather forget.
A big part of me always wanted to do right.
But the other said, ""Don't listen,"" and just wanted to fight.
My mind was messed up when I was a child.
Being raped as a little boy made me really wild.
My thinking was all wrong from that moment I see,
allowing this man to take advantage of me.
So much anger I held inside for years; I regret I decided
MTU and PMU, the military did everything they could
to make me obey orders like I knew that I should.
They wanted a soldier ready for war.
But my mind was constantly saying, ""no way and no more.""
Always doing the opposite that I was told,
till I found myself in a legal hold.
I could not trust anyone from this horrible event,
and it was to the brig that I eventually went.
I bucked the system every chance I had,
from the beginning of basic training till my family was sad.
They knew the troubles I had been in,
but never knew why I always had to win.
I suffer each morning with great anticipation,
denying the fact that I need medication.
Today I thank God I'm making it through life
With help from the VA and also my wife.
Thank you Michael Mooney & Anger Management.